Everything is over, everything has not started yet
Norton, how are you? Recently, the city where I live has finally come to the snow. People often go out of their homes. The thin spring snow is fleeting. It has existed like the past time, but it seems not true. It is like an expectation. The new time has already At the beginning, people are eager to live, go out and see the world seems to have changed. I seriously thought about it. Is there really any change? Except that we are old one year old? There are still some, and the past is sinking in our bones. This is evidence that we are alive.
Sometimes I think, people are really weird, why are they so eager for the unknown, I hope that everything is a foregone conclusion, everyone has a definite answer, everyone has a fixed position, but long-term life tells me that this is not the case. Only uncertainty is the only certainty. Everyone's demanding stability is nothing more than a sword-seeking sword. It is something that is close to romance, but there is no such thing.
People seem to think that wandering is not good. Uncertainty is not good. It is not good to be unsettled. Turning your face and laughing at the people who have lived in a constant life are mediocre. What do humans want? What is needed may be something that is not available, because it is not available, so it is craving. This kind of inversion has made people very tired. Perhaps this is also a kind of nature, and humans have no way to do this.
I always doubt and doubt the person who is confident and assertive. Isn't people's lives always hesitant and unclear? Who can know which way is the right way? Who can say how to get happiness for sure? Who can prescribe the correct answer to life? Because we are so uncertain, we have all kinds of life forms and ways, pointing out that certain lifestyles must be good and right. Those who don’t do this will definitely have a tragic end. This attitude makes me Doubt and resent. Who doesn't want to be happy? But in this world, there are not a few happy people.
Only their firmness still makes me anxious, let me wonder if I am going very fast on the wrong road. However, I always think that we are just very small people. What is the ability to control time and life? It is nothing more than a few decisive moments of mistakes, and it has been pushed here. Even with the best wishes, the strongest determination does not guarantee that there is no pain and frustration in life, and there are flowers, blessings and goodwill everywhere. If anyone can tell people, if you do this, you will be the happiest person in the world. The world will only be a madman. As for God and faith, it helps people to believe, not to help people get happiness.
Believe it is important, expectation is also very important, but no one will be convinced that the future will be very good. But it doesn't matter. I always say to myself, you are so important, your happiness is so important, don't hang on your heart, live quietly, give up your attention to yourself, care for others, try your best to keep your days fresh. . Only some anxiety and regrets will still come to mind in the middle of the night, people will toss and turn, sleepless nights.
Mr. Norton, have you regretted it? About your life. I thought for a long time, although I am not sure, but I still think that I have not regretted it. We have talked about it. The road to passing is the only way to go. There is no model in life. Although the self is not worth the money, everyone’s life is It is unique, and there is no doubt that I paid a price for my choice and spent a lot of time and emotion, which made me regret it. Not because this is my choice, but because of these costs and choices, I have become myself at the moment. People can't help but accept that they are a little sad. People who are not very happy are me, but I have no way to do this.
Sometimes I always think that at a certain moment, life will change completely. I will have a new beginning, a new life, live in a new city, meet new people, then I will grow up and understand the world. There is no miracle, but I can still change my life, starting every day, every meal, every job. In the end, the moment of "啪" will appear, I am not sure, but people live in the world, they must believe in something, look forward to a certain future, or why people should convince themselves and continue to live.
Recently, I slept very well. I got rid of the sleep aids for a while. On each night, I turned off the lights and went to bed early. After thinking for a few minutes in the dark, I could sleep deeply and never dream. This is a rare security for me, perhaps because I am back home, everything is very easy, I grew up, no one will stand in front of me and tell me how to live, my existence itself becomes Something reasonable. However, I also vaguely worried that everyone gave up and no longer expected me.
When I was sleeping, it was over, but I felt that nothing had started yet. I went back to my childhood home and walked down the street in my childhood. At the moment I passed, I recovered the original appearance of the street in my mind, and these buildings returned to the old ones. The house was short, old, the color was gray, the road was narrow, the lights were dim, and I became the silent and quirky child. Every day at dusk, I went out for a walk, alone, and walked through many streets. The passers-by must pull me to ask why a person walks so far.
Mr. Norton, sometimes I think, life is like this. We try to grow up, leave the old house and start a new life, but at some point we will understand that everything seems to be over, but you know everything. I haven't started yet. I am still a child walking alone and will not leave at any time.